Celebrating my Aunt M.Y. (whose stories live on in cyberspace)

Aunt M.Y with my mother Moon Loy in Johore Bahru, 1982.

Sometimes it takes a while to register that somebody you dearly love is no longer around - at least not physically.

My Aunt M.Y. - better known to her friends and fellow Wesleyans as Grace Lee - was born Dai Moong Yang on 18 October 1916. She spent her final years at the Lentor Residence nursing home in Singapore, gradually succumbing to senescence, and died sometime in February 2009 a few months after her 92nd birthday.

Those are but the barest facts of her life. What does it mean when you see the figures "1916 ~ 2009" engraved on a commemorative plaque in some airconditioned columbarium? Nothing much, really. Every human existence is essentially a multi-layered jigsaw of memory fragments stored in a multitude of contemporary minds. It takes a storyteller to assemble and reconstitute each life that has come and gone. To me that is what resurrection means. Each of us is a story unfolding in time and space and when we no longer inhabit our physical forms, all that remains are anecdotes.

I have only a tiny fragment of M.Y.'s story. I'm sure there are a couple of faded sepia photos of Aunt M.Y. tucked away somewhere in the appalling clutter of my study, salvaged from silverfish-eaten photo albums that survived a series of floods and stuffed in a manila envelope or two, but I have yet to locate them.

Fortunately, M.Y. was a compulsive storyteller and took pains to record a bunch of anecdotes typewritten on double-spaced foolscap sheets. She handed me a collection of her stories sometime in 1991 and asked if I could edit them for publication. I spent weeks hunched over a manual typewriter retyping her manuscripts, tweaking her syntax here and there for ease of reading - and, occasionally, adding a few literary effects to make her enchanting stories more vivid. I suggested she commission my then 19-year-old daughter Belle to come up with a few cartoons to spice up her stories.

She liked the cosmetic changes I had included and subsequently passed the material to her granddaughter, also named Grace, who owned a word processor and knew about preparing text for publication. Finally, in 1995, a thousand copies of a slim, self-published volume titled In Those Days... were printed and distributed to her friends, colleagues and relatives.

On one of my last visits to Aunt M.Y. in her Singapore nursing home, I was pleased to hear that a new edition of In Those Days... was in the works. M.Y. had just celebrated her 90th birthday and I thought it would be wonderful for a spruced-up version of her one and only book to appear as a celebration of her seemingly ordinary - yet in many ways extraordinary - life. I offered to proofread and help with the book design, as I had plenty of time on my hands and had since acquired some facility with computers.

However, as with so many good intentions, nothing transpired in the end. With my aunt's passing in early 2009, only a tiny handful knew of her humble collection of short stories. Family members are funny that way. I remember asking my own mother, M.Y.'s middle sister, whether she had finished reading In Those Days... and what she thought of it. "Oh, you know your Aunt M.Y. She loves telling tall stories!" That was all I could get out of mum.

Years later I realized how fortunate I was to have at least one storyteller in the family. Nobody else seemed interested in recording the everyday occurrences of their lives or of their ancestors - though my mother religiously kept a diary for many years. But after she died in July 1995 and I finally had access to her diaries (she had agreed to bequeath them to me after I pestered her), what I found in them read like a series of Facebook status updates: "Bad cold since Monday. Took some Aspirins but that didn't help much." Mundane stuff like that, apart from a few more intense entries whenever there was a bit of domestic drama. Truth be told, I still haven't read all my dear mother's diaries (there were at least half-a-dozen leather-bound volumes). She wasn't a natural-born storyteller like her big sister M.Y., who had a gift for narrating juicy sagas with genteel discretion.

When my affable and jocular Uncle Kong Beng (affectionately known as K.B.) died unexpectedly of a heart attack, leaving his beloved M.Y. an attractive widow in her late 40s or early 50s, a few tongues began to wag, just because she began spending a lot of time in the company of Uncle Ho - who had been best man at their wedding. In 1970 I got a job in an ad agency and moved in with Aunt M.Y. She kindly let me sleep in a curtained-off portion of her kitchen and often cooked wholesome meals for me.

Aunty M.Y. & Uncle Ho in the early 1970s 

Uncle Ho would drop by almost every day and that's how I got to know and like the man. He had worked and lived in Singapore for years and had raised a family there. Now he was estranged from his wife and found M.Y.'s company far more appealing. In turn M.Y. found Ho mentally stimulating because he was a well-read man who enjoyed discussing politics, philosophy and literature with her. I thought they were a perfect match for each other and was delighted when Aunt M.Y. bought a house in Bangsar and invited Ho to move in with her.

I often visited M.Y. in her cozy Bangsar home. She invariably insisted that I have something to eat and would busy herself in the tiny kitchen preparing a good old-fashioned meal while I tinkled on her antique upright or discussed current affairs with Uncle Ho. He struck me as essentially a pragmatist, torn between socialist ideals and a conviction borne from bitter experience that a great divide would forever exist between theory and practice because of the damnable recalcitrance of "human nature."

On one of these visits I learned from M.Y. that not everyone "approved" of her cohabiting with Ho, who was still legally married to his Singaporean wife. I didn't wish to poke my nose into other people's affairs, so I never asked Ho why he didn't obtain a formal divorce - and in any case it has never once occurred to me that couples who opt to share space must first apply for a licence from any government or seek approval from some priest.

Ever since I found out about these artificial constraints imposed on human behavior I have felt nothing but contempt for those who actually believe God personally laid down those rigid rules and regulations. As a kid I had come to my own conclusion that if a God truly existed, he or she or it would most certainly be completely free of the mental shackles of society's Caucasian chalk circle taboos.

Aunt M.Y. had been a dedicated Methodist all her life. Indeed, she told me her grandfather had been among the pioneer Foochows who migrated to Sarawak at the turn of the 20th century and established the first Methodist church in Sibu. Yet she never once presented herself as a prude, and always showed a profound empathy for human frailty. To me, if one insisted on professing Christianity, the ultimate exemplar would be my Aunt M.Y., who was well-known as Mrs Grace Lee to all Wesleyans in Kuala Lumpur because of her vigorous efforts in community service. Indeed, she was perfectly comfortable sharing her modest home and her widowed life with her old buddy Ho, a lifelong atheist and pragmatist.

My Aunt M.Y. and I were, in many ways, kindred spirits, despite our generational differences. She told me about her adventures in the astral realms, revealing how she often found herself floating out of her body and moving around with utmost freedom and facility. For months after her husband K.B. died, M.Y. would encounter him in the astral. He apparently missed her greatly and she him. The last time she visited her departed husband in the astral zone, she saw him happily remarried. He was now a simple farmer, working his fields in an idyllic valley, where life flowed in harmony with natural rhythms. She was finally able to put closure to their previous life together.

Quite often she was asked to clear stagnant ectoplasm and poltergeists from haunted houses. She described how she would get goose pimples upon entering certain areas and that would indicate the presence of discarnate entities or lost souls. Often she would be accompanied by a clairvoyant friend or two and they would simply acknowledge the cobwebs of psychic distress and pray for the release of the unhappy souls. The simple fact that she entrusted the ritual cleansing to Jesus and the Archangels made her unquestionably a disciple of the Christ.

Before she moved to Bangsar, M.Y. underwent surgery for a thyroid disorder. She reported to me, a wee bit regretfully, that she no longer astral projected after her thyroidectomy. Instead, she caught the physical travel bug and relished her speaking tours of the United States, representing Southeast Asian women at Methodist World Conferences. Back home, she devoted a great deal of time to serving in various church committees and providing free counseling to all and sundry.

Many a time when I visited M.Y., she would be dispensing sage advice and spiritual succor to distraught young women or friends undergoing domestic crises. She also began to upgrade her mastery of Mandarin and try her hand at writing articles and short stories.

In Those Days... has yet to be resurrected in print - and I can understand why, because publishing books involves not only money but an enormous expenditure of time and effort. Besides, very few publishers are prepared to invest in unknown quantities like a humble collection of personal stories written by a rank amateur, especially if there is absolutely no sensational content to be found - just a frank and sympathetic documentation of memorable episodes in a fairly ordinary human life.

After giving the matter considerable thought, I was convinced that if my Aunt M.Y. had been introduced to digital technology while her faculties were still acute, she would inevitably have become an ardent blogger or at least a ubiquitous commentator on a variety of social-political forums. Indeed, I would go so far as to visualize M.Y. getting her first whiff of tear gas at the Bersih 2.0 rally for clean and fair elections on 9 July 2011.

So I created a blog on her behalf, called... In Those Days... and when better to go public with it than on what would have been her 95th solar orbit? I have had to retype every single page, beginning from the end, so that when I finally complete this labor of love, the blog will be an online version of her first and only book. I've only managed five chapters to date, but will shoot for at least one more after I upload this post.

To any member of the family who may be displeased with the liberty I have taken by making M.Y.'s stories accessible online, I humbly apologize for disagreeing with the notion that it's best to "keep it in the family." I sincerely feel that my Aunt M.Y.'s stories have a charm all their own and provide an invaluable record of what life was like if one happened to be the granddaughter of a Chinese immigrant in British Malaya, born just after the First World War. I feel a deep enough spiritual connection with my Aunt M.Y. to assert that nothing would please her more than for her modest contribution to literature to be preserved and shared with the world at large - the world she has left and which she so unconditionally loved.

Last photo taken with my Aunt M.Y. in Singapore @  February 2008

The fact that my Aunt M.Y.'s stories will now be floating around in cyberspace may indeed catalyze a hard-copy reprint of her limited first edition - and I think that would be the most appropriate way to celebrate her 108th birthday!

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[First posted 18 October 2013, reposted 18 October 2017 & 17 October 2024]

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David Wilcock & Endgame Scenarios (repost)

More prophecies from David Wilcock...

A NEW COSMOLOGY ~ WITH A POSITIVE VIEW OF THE YEAR 2011

Everything is alive. Everything is sacred. Everything has purpose.

Our lives on Earth are apparently being guided through a complex series of spiritual lessons, through multiple physical incarnations, to eventually reach the end of a 25,000-year cycle.

In 1981, Ra said this cycle would end in "approximately 30 years" - and later confirmed the year 2011 as being "an appropriate probable/possible time" for when we would reach the "quantum leap," as they called it.

They also said there would be no additional Earth Changes and related physical catastrophes once the cycle was over.

The Mayan Calendar was never mentioned. Nor was the year 2012. Nor was the Age of Aquarius. In 1981, hardly anyone even knew about the Mayan Calendar end-date - but the timelines still matched up. 2012 may still be a more accurate figure, as Ra said the 30-year window they gave was only "approximate."

GRADUATION - AND HOW "THE GAME" IS PLAYED

At the end of this cycle - which is directly tethered to measurable movements of the Earth, Sun and Galaxy - we have the opportunity to "Graduate," and evolve into a higher form of what it means to be human.

All the greatest tricks you've seen anyone do in movies will soon become commonplace - for those who are ready to step into it.

We are told that the Earth is actually a vast school for spiritual learning - maintained by very high-level ETs whose job is to insure that you will find whatever you seek - whether positive or negative.

Ra's message, which included the physical gift of the Great Pyramid, was apparently co-opted by negative extraterrestrial humans.

These 'Gods' manipulated the Egyptian priesthood, many thousands of years ago, into creating a hierarchical, occult and self-serving system that amounts to a highly sophisticated form of black magic.

This was not Ra's original intent at all. At the very beginning of the Law of One series, Ra apologizes for having inadvertently and naively created the "negative elite" - or what most people would now call the New World Order or Illuminati.

Due to the free will principle, or "first distortion of the Law of One," as it is called, these negative forces have to be allowed to cause suffering, pain and even mass death here on Earth - within certain limits.

THEY ARE ALLOWED TO DO IT

However, the part that so few people understand is that the negative elite are actually kept on a tight leash. They can only do what they are allowed to do - as a direct mirror of the negativity that we are creating as a people on this planet.

Now they are out of time. The cycle is about to end. They think they know what is going to happen, and that they can control the outcome, but this has always and forever been a great misperception on their part.

This is another area where the new research I've done is really a game-changer. Though they have preserved the knowledge of this cycle and believe it will lead to a worldwide cataclysm, they have been strongly misled.

THUS SPOKE ZARATHUSTRA

The oldest prophecies that speak of this cycle change are from the Zoroastrian tradition. Zarathustra, whose name was Westernized as "Zoroaster", copied over ancient records from the primordial Aryan civilization. In The Source Field Investigations, I cite compelling evidence that the hub of this civilization was originally located in Siberia before the last great Ice Age.

This Ice Age, where the land was suddenly overrun by glaciers in a very short period of time and sea level rose by as much as 300 feet, appears to have been the result of a pole shift - where tropical areas suddenly became polar regions.

Atlantis, originally an "island continent" surrounded by water, became Antarctica - and all the water that washed over it was quick-frozen into ice. Some of the insiders I have spoken with have told me that most of the remains of Atlantis were crushed under this massive weight of ice - but there are certain pockets where you can still find some very neat stuff.

IT WAS A NUCLEAR ATTACK - NOT A NATURAL CYCLE

In the Law of One series, the Atlantean cataclysm is directly blamed on the use of nuclear weapons - not on a natural Earth cycle that was built into the design of the Universe to wipe us out.

It appears that the world's elite are unaware of this, and believe that the Earth intends to kill us off at the end of a cycle as a natural part of what happens. They see this as proof that their negative, every-man-for-himself, Deist philosophy is in fact the way the Universe works.

They are eagerly awaiting what they think is going to be a massive catastrophe that destroys almost all life on Earth - unless you've hidden out in an underground or off-world base.

The movie '2012' lays out their plans for how they think this is going to happen. Watch the end-credits all the way through and you will see that the movie was based on Fingerprints of the Gods by Graham Hancock, which was about Atlantis.

They absolutely believe that whatever happened to Atlantis is a natural cycle, and it will happen again in or around 2012 - perhaps closer to 2017, based on what some insiders have told me. Others disagree with this and think it is indeed 2012.

PLATO'S ATLANTIS DETAILS WAR WITH 'RAMA'

Plato's original account of Atlantis formed the basis of everything else that followed. It has given irreversible credibility to any discussion of "the A word," particularly in light of all the physical evidence of massive stone structures that were left behind.

Plato's report clearly indicates that the Atlanteans were at war with a rival civilization. The Cayce Readings said this civilization later migrated to India, but in ancient times they were called "Rama."

Other scholars such as David Hatcher Childress - who has appeared in many episodes of Ancient Aliens on History Channel, including several that I was in - found independent validation of Cayce's account:

http://www.was-this-atlantis.info/indian_aircraft.html

The so-called "Rama Empire" of Northern India and Pakistan developed at least fifteen thousand years ago on the Indian sub-continent and was a nation of many large, sophisticated cities, many of which are still to be found in the deserts of Pakistan, northern, and western India.

Rama existed, apparently, parallel to the Atlantean civilization in the mid-Atlantic Ocean, and was ruled by "enlightened Priest-Kings" who governed the cities, The seven greatest capital cities of Rama were known in classical Hindu texts as "The Seven Rishi Cities."


According to ancient Indian texts, the people had flying machines which were called Vimanas. The ancient Indian epic describes a Vimana as a double-deck, circular aircraft with portholes and a dome, much as we would imagine a flying saucer.

It flew with the "speed of the wind" and gave forth a "melodious sound." There were at least four different types of Vimanas; some saucer shaped, others like long cylinders ("cigar shaped airships").

The ancient Indian texts on Vimanas are so numerous, it would take volumes to relate what they had to say.

The ancient Indians, who manufactured these ships themselves, wrote entire flight manuals on the control of the various types of Vimanas, many of which are still in existence, and some have even been translated into English.

PLATO'S ACCOUNT OF ATLANTIS

In Plato's account, the people of Egypt and Greece united against the Atlanteans, who were trying to colonize their land -- and fended them off. Shortly after this defeat, Atlantis sank - but the Egyptians did not know why.
I want you to read the whole story for yourself - as it was originally written in the Timaeus. I have bolded certain passages for emphasis. One of them negates many common, faltering attempts to identify Atlantis as a small island -- as it was "larger than Libya and Asia put together":

http://ancienthistory.about.com/od/lostcontinent/qt/072507Atlantis.htm

Many great and wonderful deeds are recorded of your state in our histories. But one of them exceeds all the rest in greatness and valour.

For these histories tell of a mighty power which unprovoked made an expedition against the whole of Europe and Asia, and to which your city put an end.

This power came forth out of the Atlantic Ocean, for in those days the Atlantic was navigable; and there was an island situated in front of the straits which are by you called the Pillars of Heracles.

The island was larger than Libya and Asia put together, and was the way to other islands, and from these you might pass to the whole of the opposite continent which surrounded the true ocean...

Now in this island of Atlantis there was a great and wonderful empire which had rule over the whole island and several others, and over parts of the continent.

Furthermore, the men of Atlantis had subjected the parts of Libya within the columns of Heracles as far as Egypt, and of Europe as far as Tyrrhenia.

This vast power, gathered into one, endeavoured to subdue at a blow our country and yours and the whole of the region within the straits.

And then, Solon, your country shone forth, in the excellence of her virtue and strength, among all mankind. She was pre-eminent in courage and military skill, and was the leader of the Hellenes.

And when the rest fell off from her, being compelled to stand alone, after having undergone the very extremity of danger, she defeated and triumphed over the invaders - and preserved from slavery those who were not yet subjugated, and generously liberated all the rest of us who dwell within the pillars.

But afterwards there occurred violent earthquakes and floods; and in a single day and night of misfortune all your warlike men in a body sank into the earth, and the island of Atlantis in like manner disappeared in the depths of the sea.

For which reason the sea in those parts is impassable and impenetrable, because there is a shoal of mud in the way; and this was caused by the subsidence of the island.

NOW WE KNOW WHAT REALLY HAPPENED

Plato got in serious trouble for 'leaking' this secret account of Atlantis from the Egyptian priesthood. Ever since he wrote it, scholars have been hunting for proof of Atlantis and have tried to understand exactly what happened, and where it was. The Cayce Readings and the Law of One series, when combined, give us new insights that dovetail nicely with provable evidence we can dig up through research.

According to the Law of One series, Atlantis sank because of a nuclear attack - not a natural Earth cycle. The Cayce Readings imply a similar story... and given the reliability of the Law of One series in so many other areas, I'm inclined to think it is correct.


AND NOW FOR THE REST OF THE STORY...

When we put all the pieces together, this is what appears to have happened.

Soon after Egypt and Greece fended off the Atlantean invasion, the Ramans dropped nukes on Atlantis in an attempt to defeat them and force them to surrender - similar to how America ended World War II by nuking Japan.

There are several obvious references to the use of nuclear weapons in the Hindu Vedic scriptures - which are easily found with a quick Google search. Instead of winning the war, the Ramans threw the Earth into an unimaginable catastrophe - and ruined it for everyone. No one could have imagined that nuclear weapons would be powerful enough to shift the Earth's equilibrium in space, causing tropical regions to become polar - and vice versa.

THE 'ARYANS' WERE NOT CAUCASIAN

The survivors of the Rama empire became known as the 'Aryans.'

These original 'Aryans' were not Caucasian at all. As ice swept over the former paradise of Siberia, they migrated southwards in two groups - one to India and one to Iran.

The latest, greatest scholarship on the Aryan civilization pinpoints Siberia as their main center of origin - and the Zoroastrian scriptures clearly say they had to evacuate and move south due to the sudden crush of ice and terrible winter weather. It appears that 'Gods' continued interacting with the Indians - which is not necessarily a bad thing.

Zarathustra, however, adhered more closely to the original ancient Raman records. This therefore appears to be the closest we can get to what the original, ancient, positive ETs actually told us about the end of the 25,000-year cycle.

The original teachings were almost certainly given before the Ramans nuked Atlantis. I highly doubt the positive ETs had anything to do with this horrific attack - and would have stopped it if they had caught it fast enough.

Now, the ETs are being vastly more careful, and precisely monitor any and all nuclear sites on Earth - as I have written about in detail several times before. Many disasters have been stopped. According to scholars, the Zoroastrian prophecies influenced every other Western culture and its view of what will happen in "end times" - including Judaism and Christianity.

Without exception, every Jew, every Christian and every Muslim owes their vision of an End of the Age to the Zoroastrian inheritance - not to mention any and all of the secret mystery schools. Unfortunately, like the "telephone game," the story has been significantly changed over time.

THE ORIGINAL PROPHECIES DID NOT SAY WE WOULD BE WIPED OUT

In The Source Field Investigations, I cite breathtaking new research into the original Zoroastrian scriptures by Boyce and Grenet, which conclusively proves that the original prophecies did not say the world would be wiped out by this cycle change. Using new data that only became available in very recent times, Boyce and Grenet identified that this "doom and gloom" element was originally added in by the early Hebrews.

Boyce and Grenet feel this probably was the result of their imprisonment and enslavement by the Egyptians - and how that horrible suffering in turn affected their view of future events. It is also easy to see how anyone in possession of the secret story of Atlantis could assume that the cataclysm was caused by this same cycle - and not through the use of massive weapons that couldn't have even been imagined in those times.

This same mistake persists through until the present day - as seen by the creators of the movie 2012 optioning the rights to Graham Hancock's Fingerprints of the Gods, which was about the fall of Atlantis.

QUITE AMAZING PROPHECIES

The actual Zoroastrian prophecies are quite amazing. They do indicate the possibility that the flow of time itself, as we now know it, goes through some sort of radical change. Something profound happens at the most basic level of matter, energy and consciousness.

This seems impossible to most people and undoubtedly triggers sarcastic laughter - but this will also change once people study the "Magnificent" scientific evidence I present in the new book - as Graham Hancock called it. This massive 'download' of information comes out in a gorgeous hardcover book on August 18th, and is already available for pre-orders - at a much lower price than retail!

My publisher tells me that if a mere two days' worth of the people who visit our site pre-order this book before August 18th, we will automatically debut on the New York Times best-seller list.

Why does this matter? It has nothing to do with ego or generating lots of money. (In fact, we make a lot less on Amazon pre-orders anyway... since you will get it for ten dollars less than the retail price.) No... this is about making our voice heard, and getting this information out to the mainstream. It's about credibility. This book takes you far beyond any Disclosure involving a formal announcement that ETs exist. It is an awe-inspiring summary of all the science that has been suppressed by the negative elite - for at least the last century.

You can lock it in now at this super-low price anyone can afford, forget about it, and know that it will deliciously arrive in the mail... at the earliest possible second that it becomes available. Thank you so much for helping us out! Everything I've ever said in any of my lectures or videos is in here, with extensive documented references -- plus much more that no one has ever seen or heard.

THE ZOROASTRIAN PROPHECIES DO NOT SAY THE EARTH WILL BE DESTROYED

There is no doubt that the Zoroastrian texts predict a major energetic event. However, it is also clearly spelled out that it does not wipe out the Earth in cataclysms. Furthermore, these scriptures clearly indicate that the negative will be defeated - not in one sudden, stunning blow, but gradually weakening more and more until they finally just give out.

I believe that prophecy is about to come true - and may even have been fulfilled, to a large degree, before the book comes out. This is one of the most exciting articles I've ever written, because everything I've been telling you to expect for so long is finally happening. Japan was a terrible disaster and we can't change that. However, if you think this is just going to go on and on, I believe you have missed the point.

THEIR LAST LEGS

The negative elite are on their last legs - and at this point, there are remarkable news events that prove everything I've been saying is correct. This means it is very likely that we are about to see the perpetrators go into hiding - and whenever this happens, it will be quite a massive change in society and government as we know it.

They believe it will create anarchy and chaos. I personally do not. Nonetheless it is good to have some stored food and water on hand so you can be prepared for the worst, just in case. The insiders say to be ready for six months. I highly doubt there will be disruptions of anywhere near that length. However, if you end up in an area where there are short-term problems, obviously it's good to have some basic supplies at home.

WATCH FOR APRIL THE 8TH

I don't like dropping dates, but April 8th is going to be a very, very interesting day. This has gotten a bit long, so I will save the bulk of this argument for an update that will emerge by or before this date. Three different massive events all coalesce on this one focal-point - just a week before taxes are due in the US:

SUPREME COURT RULES AGAINST THE FED: The Supreme Court has given the Federal Reserve a two-week deadline to reveal where the money went - as of Monday, March 21st. This decision is one of the most significant events in American history. That brings us to April 4th - four days before the 8th.

GOVERNMENT SHUTDOWN: The Democrats and Republicans in Congress cannot agree on a budget. The US government will therefore shut down as of April 8th -- and there is no indication anyone will stop it. That means no paychecks, no services, et cetera -- for an indeterminate time.

NEW BRETTON WOODS: On this very same day, the first meeting to completely overhaul the world's financial system will take place. Other countries will now have much more of a say. This is the literal fulfillment of everything Fulford and I have been saying for so long. This will create a massive wave of prosperity and directly pave the way for the release of clean, 'free' energy technology.

THE ENDGAME PLAN

The final 'endgame' plan of the insiders, as I understand it, is to hit the US with a massive earthquake along the New Madrid fault line during the same approximate time that the government goes into shutdown.

Then, they hope, all the welfare recipients and government employees stop getting their money due to the shutdown. Society quickly disintegrates as all the services stop happening. Meanwhile, the perpetrators flee, or have already fled the country. I'm frankly amazed the conspiracy media hasn't put all this together yet, but they will soon enough. We'll get to that in Part Two. Suffice it to say I do not believe these events will unfold as they are planning.

DID WE BLAME THE GERMANS FOR HITLER?

I think it is very important to understand that the majority of the people in these negative groups are only cooperating because they have been forced to. I know some of them myself and am aware of the horrors they have been subjected to. Did we blame every German for the actions of Hitler and his cohorts in World War II, and hold each of them equally accountable?

Recent dreams have again indicated that many people will not share this view, and will react with fear and violence - at least at first. I do not judge or condemn you if you've been involved in this. You have a safe place here and will not be hated or criticized. Your leaders have lied to you by making you think that if there is a God, you would be rejected. I am personally aware of what you have been through. I am sorry about what happened to you. And I want you to know there is a way out of this that doesn't involve you being tortured like an animal.

THEY STILL DON'T GET IT

There is abundant evidence that the "negative elite" have been trying to collapse the Earth into worldwide anarchy, chaos and pandemonium throughout the entire 20th century, and on into today - but somehow it just never works out that way. They still don't understand that they get their marching orders directly from the people. They are only allowed to create negativity to a degree that is sufficient to balance what We, The People create within our own lives.

The Law of One series tells us our lives on Earth are part of a vast illusion. It is so carefully maintained that even these great worldly powers - with time-traveling technology they got from ETs and other neat toys - are completely unaware of the fact that their plans can never succeed.

WE LIVE IN A SPIRITUAL REALITY

If you could see things from Ra's perspective, you would understand that ultimately there is no drama. There is no crisis. There is no conflict. There are no paradoxes.

There is only 'catalyst', as they call it - experiences that we will be offered to the exact degree of precision necessary to open our hearts and awaken our minds. We live in a spiritual reality. Everything we think, see and do is being scrupulously monitored and studied by a greater aspect of our own selves.

Your "Higher Self" already exists now - in what you would think of as the future. It is millions of years more advanced than the level you appear to be at now. Nonetheless, since it exists in a reality where time is not confined to a linear progression, it works to guide you through your life. Dreams are one important way for your Higher Self to get a message through. At other times, the world itself follows the language and logic of the dream plane.

Disclosure - the concept of extraterrestrial humans being formally introduced to us - would definitely represent an irreversible tipping-point in our planet's history, where many apparent dreams suddenly become vividly real.

For two years now, Fulford has been saying that once the Federal Reserve is defeated and a new financial system is announced, we will get Disclosure of free energy technologies that can radically change the planet.

He has also been saying, for two years, that Japan was being threatened with earthquake weapons that would trigger a nuclear disaster - because Japan cut off the flow of money to the Rockefeller faction that has been in place since Rockefeller money was loaned to them, at an exploitive rate, to rebuild their country after World War II.

Now do you see why I'm so excited about what is about to happen?

PRELIMINARY SUMMARY

The story goes much, much farther than this - but right for now, I just want to get this preliminary summary out there. The rest will follow as soon as I get the chance.

You can be with me on April 8th in San Francisco - and get live updates as they come in about what, if anything, happens. We also have a major event coming up in London - so if you are in Europe, this is your big chance!

The Access Your Higher Self video gives you a nearly four-hour course in how to remember, analyze and understand your dreams, and develop your deepest psychic abilities - using the same protocols I developed myself. Many people have jumped in and feel it is well worth the price! Thanks again for all your support. Look within your heart and you will find the answers you seek.

[First posted 6 April 2011. reposted 2 April 2021]

Money, sexuality, illumination and the double helix (revisited)

The dollar sign is indeed a subtle variation on the caduceus which can be traced right back to Sumerian images of Enki, whose clan symbol was the serpent (probably denoting his mother's indigenous Snake lineage).

Enki, for those as yet unacquainted with the Anunnaki pantheon, was a master scientist-wizard whose son, Ningishzidda (better known as the Egyptian god Thoth), grew up to be among the greatest healer-scientist-wizards in history. The caduceus reappears in connection with Hermes Trismegistos, the Greek incarnation of Thoth, who initiated Pythagoras into the Mysteries. The caduceus was adopted by the Hermeticists as their emblem, indicating spiritual descent from Enki.

Hippocrates (possibly a student of Pythagoras) is called the Father of Medicine - and his symbol was the caduceus. All doctors were obliged to take the Hippocratic oath (don't know if they still do so today), which explains why the Medical Association also has the caduceus as its emblem.

The serpent represents not just an ancient tradition of scientific wisdom originating on earth from Enki's work as a geneticist (it was Enki who engineered the Adamic race with a little bit of help from Ninhursag, his feisty medical officer and half-sister). There is thus the distinct possibility that the entwined serpents on the caduceus (yes, there are usually two) symbolize the double helix of our DNA.

Kundalini - that mysterious bioelectrical force that supposedly surges through our chakras along the spine - has traditionally been depicted as a coiled serpent at the base of the spine. When awakened, the serpent uncoils towards the crown chakra, facilitating enlightenment, It is therefore highly likely that the early Illuminati (Enlightened Ones) revered the image of the serpent(s) entwined around the tree (or spine).

As in Tolkien - as well as Stars Wars - mythology, the Illumined Ones (aka Istari or Jedi, guardians of cosmic wisdom) were not immune to hubris, hence the occasional "fall from Grace" that produced renegade Illuminati (like Saruman or Annakin Skywalker). It is unfortunate that in our time, being labeled an Illuminatus is not necessarily a compliment. Indeed, everyone assumes you're a member of the New World Order Cabal. (This explains the moral ambiguity of secret mystical orders like the Templars, Freemasons, and so on. David Icke, for one, doesn't conceal his intense mistrust of the Great White Brotherhood and all the Ascended Masters - this is simply because the ones involved with manipulating human evolution are identified as the Archons, what Susan Ferguson calls the Phantasmal Hierarchy in her 'Inanna' books.)

Tree of Knowledge by Martina Hoffman

Tantalizingly, the caduceus image is contained in the story of Adam and Eve as the Serpent on the Tree, representing the potential of kundalini arousal, which would result in tantric consciousness - spiritual adulthood, autonomy from the dictates of a paternalistic deity. (There are actually TWO trees - one called the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, the other the Tree of Immortal Life.)

It's easy to see why the caduceus was modified into the dollar sign - after all, money is a universal symbol of energy, it's a form of sexual currency or current - it triggers activity, propels industry, and secures material needs. Hence the money-fixation of our sexually-repressed species - which shows the many facets of activated kundalini, as creative as well as procreative impulses. When we lust after money, it's really the sublimation of an insatiable desire to fuck and be fucked. Perhaps that's why sexual abstinence is often linked with voluntary poverty.

Mr Kundalini by Nathan Hopkins

Modern notions of sexuality are inextricably linked with money. Pornstars don't do it so much for fun as for profit. Me, I'm old-fashioned and prefer to do it for fun. How about it, sexy, doing anything this weekend?

[From an email posted 2 March 2003 on the Magick River Network, first published 17 June 2012, reposted 8 April 2013, 25 March 2016, 13 July 2017, 26 March 2021 & 9 August 2024]

THE MAN WHO SHOULD BE KING (revisited)

Raja Bok reunited with Antares at Kg Pertak 28 March 2009 (pic by Ana Lewis)

Last weekend I had the pleasure of renewing my 30-year acquaintance with a really lovely guy I've always known as Bok, though his official name is Raja Zailan Putra Raja Dato' Seri Haji Azam.

A mutual friend introduced us back in 1979 or 1980. I knew at the time that Bok boasted a royal pedigree. I saw photographs in his modest house of colorful characters in courtly regalia.

One that stood out was of Bok's great-grandfather, Raja Muda Abdullah (right), who signed the 1874 Pangkor Treaty with Sir Andrew Clarke and was anointed Sultan Abdullah of Perak.

Things started to go awry soon after that when the British sent a colonial officer named James Wheeler Woodford Birch (3 April 1826 - 2 November 1875) to Perak to serve as advisor to the Sultan.

From the standpoint of the Malay chiefs, Birch was arrogant and insensitive to local customs. He had no understanding of the Malay psyche and absolutely no facility with the language. Birch was appalled at the local practice of capturing Orang Asli and turning them into household slaves. He ordered an immediate stop to such barbaric activities. While it may have been a laudable act on Birch's part, it was akin to forcing a bunch of carnivores to go vegetarian overnight. His missionary zeal to civilize the natives cost Birch his life.


Dato' Maharajalela, who got the bulk of his income from capturing and selling Orang Asli as slaves, ganged up with a few disgruntled slave-traders and, on 2 November 1875, assassinated James Birch while he was taking his bath in the riverine village of Pasir Salak.

This led to the Perak War which lasted several months as British forces hunted down the leaders of the Malay rebellion. Dato' Maharajalela was captured and hanged along with other accomplices, while Sultan Abdullah was found guilty of complicity in the murder of J.W.W. Birch and exiled to the Seychelles for 46 years. One of Abdullah's cousins was installed as Sultan in his stead. It is from this lineage that the present Perak succession derives.

Bok, currently CEO of an insurance brokerage, told me he's the eldest male heir in his family. As such, when his father died several years ago, the succession would have passed to him. But for a twist of fate that saw his great-grandfather Sultan Abdullah Muhammad Shah deposed by the British in 1877, I would have been conversing last weekend in Pertak Village with the reigning Sultan of Perak.

Needless to say, there are distinct compensations for not being born in a palace. For one thing, Raja Zailan Putra has always been a jovial, easygoing, fun-loving chap with a wide circle of friends. His lifestyle isn't exactly conventional and he cherishes his personal freedom to be whoever and whatever he pleases. Everybody calls him Bok anyway and even if he were to appear in the full formal regalia befitting his royal status, his friends would probably insist on calling him Raja Bok.

In short, Bok has been able to live a relatively normal life, owing to the fact that his bloodline was removed by British decree from the Perak succession three generations ago, as punishment for rebelling against the colonial masters. There are many other royals who, like Bok, enjoy a certain measure of freedom from stuffy protocol, either because they aren't on the shortlist for royal succession - or because they have outgrown the musty traditions that would severely curb their individual freedom.

Raja Petra Kamarudin is a prominent example of someone with royal pedigree who consciously chose to align himself with the public good rather than self-servingly uphold private interests and special privileges. Or at least he succeeded for a while in projecting himself as such. There are several other maverick royals I am personally acquainted with but I won't name them here, because they may not be too keen on publicity.

I hadn't seen Bok in more than 20 years, so it was a great delight to bump into him driving a 4X4 along the old logging trail just outside Pertak Village. Mutual friends had arranged a camping trip by the river and Bok decided to come. It was genuinely sweet to renew our friendship and to note that this man who should have been a king had adapted so well to the life of a commoner.

Seeing Bok was a powerful reminder that, ultimately, what matters most is the humanity each of us is born with. The outer trappings are really quite insignificant. A pirate king remains a pirate no matter how reputable his tailor. And a noble soul stays noble, no matter how dire his or her earthly circumstances.

Another friend recently revealed that he grew up in Kuala Terengganu near the Istana and used to play badminton with the young Mizan Zainal Abidin who related to him like any other kid. But when Mizan was named the crown prince, things rapidly changed. Court officials forbade the boy from mixing with his old school friends and the lad became cloistered in preparation for his future role as Sultan of Terengganu (and at this writing the Yang Di Pertuan Agong).

Over the years, surrounded constantly by genuflecting servants, wizened counselors and persnickety courtiers, anyone would turn schizophrenic. The split between public and private personas would grow ever wider. What the public is allowed to see would be a stern-faced, unsmiling, overdressed symbol of hereditary power; while the private self either becomes cynical, detached and indifferent - or turns feral, debauched and dissolute.


One of my favorite stories of all time is about the Prince and the Pauper who traded places. I've often wondered if I would do a Siddhartha and walk out of the palace if I happened to be born into a royal bloodline.

In 1989 I experienced vivid "flashbacks" and "crosstalk" from parallel lives which forced me to be a lot more open to "reincarnational" scenarios. In several lifetimes I was of royal lineage - and the experience was never entirely happy. More than once I "remembered" being betrayed and murdered by those close to me. In short, life in a palace isn't exactly a bed of roses - and even if it is, there are always a few thorny aspects.

This is why I sometimes feel great sympathy for those trapped amidst the pompous paraphernalia and robotic rigmaroles of royalty. They are like the magical nightingale in a gilded cage, imprisoned by public expectations and compelled to sacrifice their personal lives for the sake of tribal continuity.

It's easy to view each successor to the throne as a Gulliver bound by Lilliputian constraints. The Little People scurrying around the Great Personage have a vested interest in keeping the Great Personage on a short leash. Like any institutionalized priesthood, the courtiers are the ones who ensure that protocols endure, for it assures them and their posterity a comfortable livelihood.

Coronation of Napoleon

The court officials have learnt to use pomp and circumstance and grandiloquent ceremony to shock and awe the Great Unwashed into superstitious subservience to specific bloodlines. But, ultimately, it's all a gigantic deception like ritual theater. Strip away the fancy costume, the shiny headgear and the inscrutable mask... and what stands revealed is a human being like you and me.

I told Bok I was really intrigued by his family history. He said there was a website with some information, including a detailed genealogy. I must remind him to send me the link. Who knows, the wheel of fortune is constantly in spin.

One day you could be the prime minister elect, and the next day a jailbird, and vice versa.

As I searched the web for images to illustrate this story, I realized that April 3rd happens to be James Birch's birthday. The Wiki entry on Birch names Frank Swettenham as the British Resident who succeeded Birch - a detail that gave me goosebumps, since I have long suspected that I might well have been most recently incarnate on this earth in the guise of a Maddog Englishman and empire-builder named Frank Athelstane Swettenham!

James Wheeler Woodford Birch did not die in vain, for the colonial officers who were subsequently assigned to Malaya were much better equipped and better prepared for their roles. Rather than be seen to act high-handedly on their own behalf, the Residents learned to manipulate the Malay rulers to do their bidding, knowing full well the natives' tendency to grovel before their sultans in superstitious awe. Some Malay aristocrats educated in England appear to have learned a few useful tricks from their erstwhile colonial masters.




THE PERAK SULTANATE
1. Sultan Muzaffar Shah (1528-1540 A.D.)
2. Sultan Mansur Shah I (1549-1577 A.D.)
3. Sultan Ahmad Tajuddin (1577-1584 A.D.)
4. Sultan Tajul Ariffin Shah (1584-1594 A.D.)
5. Sultan Alauddin Shah (1594-1603 A.D.)
6. Sultan Mukaddam Shah (1603-1619 A.D.)
7. Sultan Mansur Shah II (1619-1627 A.D.)
8. Sultan Mahmud Shah (1627-1630 A.D.)
9. Sultan Salehuddin Shah (1630- 1635 A.D.)
10. Sultan Muzzaffar Shah II (1636-1653 A.D.)
11. Sultan Mahmud Iskandar Shah (1653-1720 A.D.)
12. Sultan Alauddin Mughayat Shah (1720-1728 A.D.)
13. Sultan Mudzaffar Shah III (1728-1744 A.D.)
14. Sultan Muhammad Shah (1744-1750 A.D.)
15. Sultan Iskandar Zulkarnain (1754-1764 A.D.)
16. Sultan Mahmud Shah (1764-1771 A.D.)
17. Sultan Alauddin Mansur Shah (1771-1786 A.D.)
18. Sultan Ahmaddin Shah (1786-1806 A.D.)
19. Sultan Abdul Malek Shah (1806-1818 A.D.)
20. Sultan Abdullah Mu'azzam Shah (1818-1830 A.D.)
21. Sultan Shahabuddin Ri'ayat Shah (1830-1851 A.D.)
22. Sultan Abdullah Muhammad Shah (1851-1857 A.D.)
23. Sultan Ja'afar Shafuddin Shah (1857-1865 A.D.)
24. Sultan Ali Al-Mukammil Innayat Shah (1865-1871 A.D.)
25. Sultan Ismail Mu'abiddin Ri'ayat Shah (1871-1874 A.D.)
26. Sultan Abdullah Muhammad Shah (1874-1877 A.D.)
27. Sultan Yusuf Sharifuddin Mu'azal Shah (1877-1887 A.D.)
28. Sultan Idris Murshidul Azam Shah (1887-1916 A.D.)
29. Sultan Abdul Jalil Nasiruddin Shah (1916-1918 A.D.)
30. Sultan Alang Iskandar Shah (1918-1938 A.D.)
31. Sultan Abdul Aziz Al-Mutasimbillah Shah (1938-1948 A.D.)
32. Sultan Yusuff Izzuddin Shah (1948-1963 A.D.)
33. Sultan Idris Iskandar Shah (1963-1984 A.D.)
34. Sultan Azlan Muhibbuddin Shah (1984-2014)
35. Sultan Dr Nazrin Muizzuddin Shah (2014-present)

JANGAN TAKUT! FEAR THEM NOT!


[First posted 2 April 2009, reposted 8 April 2014, 9 March 2016 & 8 June 2020]

Another virtual heavy petting session with Kay the Hottie (an indigo)...

Kay the Hottie wrote on 26 January 2003:

Okay, so my next question for you is... how did you find that awareness? Not the general kind of awareness that I have, but the specific awareness, the names, the dates, the families, etc.... I have been having a lot of dreams about alien abductions, missions, space voyages and the like in the last year and know they were no ordinary dreams. I have asked my guides (I 'met' them) to help me find the answers to those questions (A lot of the answers for how I can really serve the human race/journey to enlightenment lie in my deep past, I think). I know I have a very crucial role (as do we all!) and want to have more awareness about it. So my question again is how did you find it?

Kay my dear, a lot of information can be classified as "unnecessary baggage." Most times, I don't know nuts about nuttin' - but somehow bits and pieces are leaked to me whenever someone asks me a question. Perhaps we know all of it at a subconscious level (or superconscious, more likely). It's a simple matter of data retrieval. Some folks can easily access the Akashic Records (Edgar Cayce being a well-documented cayce in point, pun fully intended) and others (like you) have spirit guides whisper advice in their inner ear. Now that you ask me point blank HOW DID I FIND THAT AWARENESS? I'm stumped.

I really don't know HOW, Kay, believe me. Maybe I accept the notion that NOTHING IS REAL BUT EVERYTHING IS TRUE. Which means it all happens in the IMAGINATION - the Big Bang, Scenario Universe, Evolution, Creator Gods, Galactic Federations, Light Councils, Ascended Masters, the Entire Kaboodle! Therefore, simply by TRUSTING your imaginative intuition, you become receptive to whatever flows in and out of your consciousness. You may visualize it as being in alignment with your Higher Self or Guiding Angel or The Big G. I've had lots of practice talking with myriad aspects of my Self. Okay, my MULTIDIMENSIONAL SELF. A very appealing and enticing aspect of which happens to be... Kay the Hottie!

I've set Kay up to prompt me from time to time into answering her metaphysical questions, just so I can remind myself how vast my/your/our memory bank actually is. Now what happens is that the so-called "western" method of schooling (we're better off describing it as the Greco-Roman-Judaeo- Christian Template of Instruction) emphasizes logic and the quantitative approach. In short, it favors empirical knowledge over intuitive knowing. Empiricism deals mainly with erroneous notions of OBJECTIVITY, MEASURABILITY, REPEATABILITY, CONCRETE PROOF. All of which happens only within a very narrow band of the Electro-Magnetic Spectrum called the PHYSICAL WORLD.

The scientific materialism which underpins all our educational methodologies makes it virtually impossible for anyone raised in such a materialistic environment to deprogram himself or herself from the left-brained, proof-demanding approach to truth. Yes, you're right in saying that the cultural matrix into which you chose to incarnate does not readily support your metaphysical seeking - although the amazing thing is that a dramatic shift has occurred within the last 100 years or so wherein the West has become more and more interested in Eastern Mysticism - while the East has become more and more enamored of Western Materialism. Indeed, you'll find more Tibetan rinpoches in California than in Tibet itself, especially after the 1959 Chinese invasion. Himalayan sages have found more faithful followers out west than back home. In short, where you happen to incarnate has little bearing on your quest for eternal truth... or at least some answers to your burning questions.

I'm reminded of a book I read recently caled Sophie's World. It's a fairly readable summary of Western Philosophy starting with the Athenians and ending with the German-Scandinavians. It doesn't include Eastern Philosophies - but that would have made the author's task well nigh impossible.

I know you're eager to figure out your earthly mission and get on with it. But methinks you've been doing a great job so far. Why, you're only 24, right? And you've already worked out all the essential bits. Some folks don't have a clue about their true missions till they're way past 40 - and lots don't wake up till they're back in the astral! So, don't be in such a rush, Kay love, take your time and trust that your Higher Self knows exactly when you need a specific experience or a roadsign to get back on track.

Now how's that for a HEAVY PETTING session???

Big Fat Smoochies,
Antares
xxX0Xxx

[From my email archives. First posted 20 June 2012, reposted 21 September 2015 & 

20 February 2019]

HAPPY 108, MUM!

Mum & Dad in 1961

1958 Family Foto

En route to Melbourne for Dad's bypass surgery, 1981

My beloved mother, Dai Moon Loy, would have begun her 108th solar orbit today. She left her body 31 years ago on 14 July 1995. A non-alcoholic toast to your sweet memory, Mum! 💖💖💖

SWEET MEMORIES OF MY DEAR MAMA